podcast--book of job

i have been playing around podcast thing for a few days now... there is this daily audio bible podcast, and the first part of the passages is on the book of job these days.
at first I was like, you kidding, book of job?

book of job is kinda that special book for me. back in 6-8 years ago, when things were hard, life was going crazy, I would always turn to the book of job read it over and over again. Even 4 years ago, Hannah would always joke and say my nickname is Job. and there was this once three years ago, I was trying to type my name in Chinese, but somehow still have the English input method on, so when I was typing rae it came up as job... maybe everybody else had a good laugh, but I didn't know how to take it... even rose too, at one point of time she honestly admitted that she's just like those three friends of job, misunderstood and wrongly accused me regarded to the difficulties I was going or went through...

job, this man, was upright before God...
but he was very depressed due to the sufferings, I assume so, coz lots of things he said were just like my very own words... he honestly poured out all his pain, bitterness, anger, disappointement before God. he defended himself of all the misjudgements his friends placed upon him...

God had never answered Job's pleading for death, nor did His explain why everything happened the way it did. What God did was to show who He is to Job, with words.

Job's response:
"I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.
You asked, 'Who is this that obscures my counsel without knowledge?'
Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know.
"You said, 'Listen now, and I will speak; I will question you, and you shall answer me.'
My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.
Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes."

God is not distant in mist of pain and suffering. I am thankful that I can come before Him, with no need to hide, can be totally honest about every feeling within me. I don't need to put myself together in order to approach Him, for He is near to the broken hearted.