after all...

I was fairly surprised that people would compliment on things I do at work.
Thursday evening after work, I told my boss @ Kumon that I won't be able to work there any more after the summer. Her response was, "Oh my God, I am in big trouble!... You have always been very reliable, always know what to do... " she was also concerning, asking if my decision to go home has to do with my health problem.

Same morning, I was working at the library. because of shorting of hands, my supervisor actually came out to be at the reference desk @ MC with me. I was quite nervous around her.... but I tried to be the way I normally am. and later (the next day) she sent out e-mail to the whole group saying the way I dealt with certain situation was very good, and everybody should learn from me... I was quite blown away--how is it possible?

I always see myself putting a lot of efforts but still like fail 1/3 of the time, if not all... I am always frustrated at myself. I always wonder why I try so hard and still not getting anywhere, but others who are not even trying half as hard as I do, but can do thing so much better than me...

maybe it's true... that I am not a total failure after all. even though I am not good at most of the things i do, but i don't need to place my identity on what i do and how well i can do it.
I want to thank God that, yes, my identity is in Him alone, coz He called me His own.