heart that God is looking for

it's been a while since i used this.
anyway, today was a special Sunday where God reminded me of a few things.
first was during the missions presentation by India/China teams. in the previous years when i used to watch these presentations, i used to sob b/c my heart was overwhelmed with the burdens to reach the lost and just to see the pictures of those places just made me long for missios more and more. but today, i was surprised to find my heart so hard and cold. it moved me more during the 2nd celebration, but i realized how my heart for the world evangelism has lost the passion lately. then after the 2nd celebration, i talked to a new int'l student that i noticed a few weeks ago. i went up to him to talk about int'l small group and learned that he is a real Christian who really has a deep faith. i realized that i ushered him during the 1st celebration, so i asked him why he was at the 2nd celebration again. what said, "I just had to come back and worship God one more time." the moment he said that, i felt the spirit of God rebuking me of my impure and hardened heart. this is the kind of heart that God is looking for, someone who desires to worship God in spirit and truth. Who couldn't help but to come back again to worship God. in the midst of my chaotic life and all the people that i'm involved with, i've lost the pure desire for God and lost the burden for world evangelism. i had to come home tonight to pray and repent for my hardened heart. God please melt my heart again. After all, it is you alone that I desire to worship.